on blogging

writing and maintaining a blog post isn't as easy as slipping a panty-hose. it requires a lot of effort on the part of the writer. first, that blogging should either be personal or a money making machine. it can either finance you or fame. blogging has been a part of every teenagers life. it is considered as the 'in' thing and this is the new diary. throw all those fancy notebooks and bulky notes, go blog! when you write a blog you write what you think and say what you do [personal blogging]. if your blog is a social-money-oriented blog, then you have to think of what the readers would want and not bore them with all stupid shits over and over again. everyone has gone overboard and made their way through fame with their blog. others still, remain shun and accept their loser side.

still other bloggers are very disultory. but this is advantageous on their part.

what the hell am i talking about. this is blogging mania! im having a bloggorhea because of our university thesis. screw the thesis! i hate, i love blogging.
















btw, i love these limited edition viviene westwood pendants. i ♥!

on my way to the tea party

nothing beats the staple, LBD and pumps. why give a fuss over what to wear over a party? because, time and again, we are being fried over public scrutiny. our prerogative therefore is to try to dress our best and put a foot forward bragging our prada heels. then we'll call the hostess of the party, holding our YSL medium leather bag, and we walk across the room to give a speech. everyone looks at us and started to envy our Oscar de la Renta Wool Crepe Tunic dress. the silhouette of our dress is 'to-die-for'. this is New York City, where everyone, and everyone, wears designer.

my n.f.f.

most of us, if not all, like everyone has a new-found-friend. in my case, i really liked my NFF simply because he is likable. he's name is divo and he is gay or bisexual or an unidentified creature. last mornyt, we chatted via FB and he was tired of love and short whateves. he wanted to tell me about his life and all but duh! i was a NFF and you do not just open up to a stranger?! we chatted about his life and my life and everything in between. he is nice [my first impression]. he is kinda sweet and very charming [like charming charming]. he is a nurse and to note, i like nurses. nurses make me go ga-a-ga! we chatted about his lovelife and every tragedy in his quote "damn" unquote life. lol. he wants some pizza and um... i think... a cup of cappucino... and another food, a burger i think! divo is divolific.

but i dont like him. like like-like!

life is but a game of poker

it is pretty insane to think how my life turned over the past weeks. with an Ace and a king on hand i folded and was never included in the game of luck. for a starter, i was just new with this kind of game but sadly i'm losing. the term 'beginners luck' wasn't true to me.

last week was stress week and so far, i was not able to recover from such hellish and traumatic. exams were a bit rush and turnouts were not really as what i've expected. i had really bad grades like b's and c's and i really am not prepared for such. i haven't figured why it came to such a tremendous loss but i blame it to that thesis as it distracted me from doing my readings and studying. it was really one hell of a week. to add on that, i have never seen my crush last week (and by crush i meant crush). i dont know if it was really conflicting schedules that caused it but im quite sure that fate isnt pro. but to every trouble comes reconnection. i had his number and we had a short chat yesterday. so far so good until today. i already have his number but i am really a coward! i dont know what to text him!

but one thing i am afraid is losing him. losing my crush without even having to get to know him. this is my last year in my university and my last few months of seeing him. im a bit nostalgic of the parting part and a bit ecstatic of what to expect. i know that we will move our separate ways. going forward to a life full of uncertainties and trials and God-knows what. i might go west and he might do his outreaches with the people of Tibet or the Himalayas. But one thing is certain, he is my crush!

life is but a game of poker. very unexpected, very heart-pounding, very poker-ish!

blogging as a topic

this is my senior year at my university and i'm doing my best to really cope with my studies. well, this time, is cram and show time at the same time! we had to do a research based on a social maybe cultural or an uprising topic and we need to develop the topic, study the topic, shit on the topic etc. in no more than 4 months, insane! i really don't think thesis are somehow needed to graduate. i really think that it isnt beneficial and its just a waste of time after all!





















there has been a major shift in terms of my priorities so i wasnt able to blog for like the last months or so. i've been really busy with school that i am forgetting almost everything, lovelife, food, even my name!

i think the reason that i blog is that i have this as an outlet for what i feel. i think that either i blog or i die. that's how bad the impact of this new-found-money-making medium to me and even to some of the people i know.

recently, we chose a topic for our final, make-or break thesis, and this time, we chose blog, even if im the only one blogging in our group. why? simple, it was the best topic to have the 'best thesis award'. but if not for that f-ing shitful award, we would have chosen fashion! coz seriously, we la-av fashion...

i wasn't able to blog because i am using my notes on FB to write something. i think that its far more practical to use FB for blogging because it is such a user-friendly networking site, capable of almost everything, and since i am FB-ing almost everyday, might as well write there! but i dont plant to ditch my blogspot account as it served many sentimental values to me and like myself. i cant just ditch an account for like a fad. this has been my haven of refuge. whenever i feel blue or whatever, i feel that my blog, MY BLOG is there to listen.

but for now, i have to really have my focus, that is, my thesis. its our last hope to graduation. this is our the next thing to HELL! ciao!

nothing major.

Kristen Stewart did not!

just recently Kristen Stewart was spotted sporting a 'so-not-so-hot-so-not" hair. she is doing a whole lot of internalization for her character as Joan Jett, the 1980's i love rock n' roll. i cant believe she did this!

ive had the roughest time!

i dont know how to start it but i had this feeling that i really had to blog something. my mind tells me to write something that i do know what. its a bit awkward that i was so fascinated with the use of the net that i nearly forgot that my blog, or this one ever existed. well, i had pondered on things lately and i realized how the world was so big and how useless and tiny i was. i have also learned that life has many things to offer. i had seen this movie "snow cake" and i realized how lonely it was to live alone--at least with autism.  

living this short a life is what makes me bothered, and worried and a bit annoyed.  im a bit sad thinking that i have only one year for my uni and the situation hit me like a big-yellow-student-full school bus.  i have dreamed of going to singapore after graduation.  a dream i dont know how to start or if it will really start. or whatever. i was fortunate that i got my family behind me who has been very supportive in my entire stay in school.

on last night's show in oprah, they were talking about finances and i was shocked that i was really consumed by status that i nearly forgot that i cant afford things which i normally buy. for instance, drinking coffee everyday for 5 bucks isnt rewarding. i dont have a job. my allowance isnt enough, i dont get pay checks! like i was really driven by my friends to be this and that-a person who is not me. and i think that having to cancel night-outs or not having to smoke a whole pack of cigar really helps a lot, i mean financially. i began to realize how important it was for me to be safe all the time and how to manage my time wisely. i never really imagined that summer will have an impact so huge, like this, on me. 

this will be a testament that i had once been a victim of cigarette. this will be a proof that i will change my old ways and be a better person. i will have to avoid going out and indulging in vices because i know i am not that  and i dont have the resources to spend.

i guess, i will just have to end this by a quote from edie brit, desperate housewife...

"its not hard to die if you know you have lived."